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Friday, 26 December 2014 ♥

First Love

Dear Blogger,

I've been with asik for more than 10 months and still counting but there's a lot going on between us. He has changed and i'm not liking the new him. His not like the guy i felled in love with. Is it time i let go? I wish i could but my feelings for him are so strong. I can't just let go. We've been through a lot of stuff together. I felt so comfortable with him. I've never have feelings like this towards someone before. Brendan, Odenk or anyone never gave me this feeling. I don't want anyone than him. It's funny cause he is not rich , not that handsome but the heart wants what it wants i guess? hmmm I wish everything was like before again. I really do because how can you forget someone that gives you so much to remember? He used to promise me that i'll be his forever but this don't seem like forever. God, i wish he change to his old self :( I'll give it a shot but if things are still the same then i should let go. But you don't give up on the people you love so i'm fighing for this to last. Please pray for me...

xoxo-evaanerd

Thursday, 18 December 2014 ♥

2015 LOADING

Dear Blogger,

As you all can see 2015 is coming and its a new year and new me. Lol i said this every year but i never change. Well, I'm serious this time. 2014 was the most unexpected year. First off, i actually have a boyfriend and its getting serious. Next, my parents divorce. Theres a lot i need to change next year so just like everyone else i have a resolution.

1-STOP BEING SHY

Im having trouble socializing. I'm shy but i'm not anti-social. I just don't know what to talk about. STRESS! I'm always awkward when im in a place full of people. I can't get a long with my boyfriend's friends because im too shy. I can't even make new friends. But nexy year is going to change. *I hope

2-FOLLOW YOUR SCHEDUALE

Im always procrastinaing and i should stop it. I need to set up my own rules and follow them.

3-RESPECT YOUR PARENTS

Ever since the divorce, i realize i'm being rude to my mother. like shouting back. I guess i'm angry that's why i'm taking it out on her because my father is not here. She works hard on raising us so i need to respec her.

4-UPGRADE MYSELF

Who am i now, is ugly and thats's going to change nex year. I need to be upgraded in beauty, style and body. I compare myself to popular girls like Balqish Karishma. My self-esteem when down when i saw her cause she's beautiful like a barbie doll and i'm just a potato.

5-STOP IMAGINING

They say its good to have high imagination but i should stop it. stop expecting too much and focus on reality.

6-STUDY HARD

this is it. main goal i have to get 9A+ at SPM. This is my last shot to prove that i can be better than my sister. My only last chance to get a straight A in a big examination. It sounds impossible but i gotta try my best to be the best.

That's all for now wish me luck for this resolution to come true. i'll update soon :*

xoxo,

evaanerd